only 2 more days to freedom; to everyday-soccer activity; to play-battlegear4-all-day; to pure fun and joy and happines and everything.. just when i'm feeling little less stressful; feeling happy because this thursday marks the closure of the mid years; feeling ecstatic because i can go out with friends freely; feeling excited and happy altogether because i'll be wating in anxiety for 18th may, the premiere of The Da Vinci Code... GREGORY ANG HAD TO TELL ME THE FILM IS RATED NC16.!!! what is wrong with them.?! can't kids appreciate the movie together.? i think, i'm going to find a way to contact dan brown, talk to him, write a letter of appeal and have him sign on it. then, i'll pass that letter of appeal to whoever in charge of the ratings for movies. why can't they rate other movies like 16 blocks, mission: impossible III, eight below or.. what do they have.? where the truth lies or some other movie.?! why da vinci code.? i've been buying 8days faithfully, reading the reports and summaries they have for the da vinci code as if it's my textbook. but it's all gone now.! i think i'll have to either sneak in or... wait. given my size, nobody will believe i'm 16, neither will they believe i'm 15 already. if anyone chance upon the pirated cd of the da vinci code, please buy it, watch it, and then hand it over to me. i'll be more than happy to pay for the cd.

frankly speaking, i've become a really bad christian - not going to church, missing cell acitivites etc. to worsen this situation, i begin reading the da vinci code. perhaps my life and relationship with God hasn't reach that level, whereby nothing will break us easily. the da vinci code affected me alot, and recently, i find it hard to believe that there's a Creator indeed. i feel disappointed with God, just like how He will feel about me. but can you imagine - you've been worshipping a fake or made-up God all these years, and that everything your parents, relatives and friends told you about christianity is all made up.? it frightens me. if God did have the power, why did he allow the production of the book in the very first place.? the large scale production of the novel of the da vinci code is terrifying, reaching more than 40 million copies sold.! let's say, half of the 40 million population who have bought the book are christians. and in this 20 million, half of it are shaken and affected gravely by the insides of the book. doesn't that make the christian population in the society go down as fast as letting go of the handphone in your hand.? God should have restricted this production. yes, yes, christians will go, "oh. He is just testing your faith," or, "He will judge on Judgement Day. the non believers shall perish, while the believers go to heaven with Him." or even, "these are the works of Satan. God will send him to hell one day.!" you see, allowing the production of the book is bad enough. why still allow a movie to be filmed for viewers all around the world to see.? i seriously doubt my God.

however, i believe my relationship with God shook when i drew away from my church friends and leaders because of somebody. i'm disgusted by that somebody, walking around like a big gangster with his head lifted high, breasts all poked out, and arms swaggering behind his back as if his ass needs fanning. i cannot understand how he is able to lift his head up and walk around this earth not realizing he's negatively extraordinary. screw you, idiot. my spiritual life is broken because of you.