it all happened a few months back when i was all hopeful and glad. if i didn't start this initially, i wouldn't have been feeling what i'm feeling right now - sad and dejected. in the past, it was an ease and without worries to do my things in my everyday life. that includes playing soccer, going out with friends etc. but right now.? i'm just a piece of shit. ): i seriously wish time could just turn back at this instant and give me a chance to change everything baby. but i doubt it will ever happen. you see, if i didn't play soccer every other day after school under the hot sun, my leg wouldn't have to suffer the abrasion between its sole and my school shoes. because of this, blister came and went so frequently, causing a corn to appear at the left of my sole. if i didn't start this initally, would i be having this.? i went to the doctor's with my mom just yesterday, and the doctor said if the medicine prescribed to me don't work, i will have to go to the national skin centre. i don't want anything to happen to my leg.! i'm sad and dejected not being able to play soccer for days. also, when my mom and i were collecting my medicine, she chanced upon this RELIEVE NAIL BITING FAST medicine. it was $11.50 for a small bottle, but determined to kick my habit, she bought it for me. i ought to be grateful, but this is torture. it's a nail polish kinda thing to apply to your nails. so, whenever you try to bite your nails, and when your tongue comes in contact with the application, this bittle taste takes over your mouth and you feel like choking. for those who would like to taste this incorrigible taste and share my suffering, i don't mind you licking my fingers. but please don't retaliate by punching or kicking or headbutting me. i'm so sad, because this time, i will really have to kick my habit of chewing on my fingernails. ): i think i sound crazy having an obsession for my fingernails. for those who have the habit of chewing on their fingernails, i urge you to visit every pharmacy store and buy every single RELIEVE NAIL BITING FAST bottle right now.! because i don't want you to suffer like me.! by biting my fingernails, it comes as a convenience - i haven't touch a nail clipper for years, except to cut my toenails. and shiongbin once said fingernails contain fibre which will ultimately make you fat if you have them swallowed into your stomach. but who cares.? i think i'm done. i'm having the kind of creeps you have when you see 120 million ants all piled up on each other, searching desperately for food. i'm done with this shit. i think i should just break the bottle of "nail polish" and my suffering. till then babies, i'll miss my fingernails.