i'm feeling really mixed now. one moment i'm praising and loving God, one moment i'm dreading church camps. i'm being asked to go to this camp that commence tmr.? becos of the BigMove, my cell group is heavily event-packed, and yes, packed with events that i really don't wish to go to. events so far apart, literally not affliated to Christ, such as coming together as a network to jog. i'm pressured currently. how i wish i could tell my cell group leader that i want to take a break from cell group, but not from God. i feel somewhat forced becos my cell group leader ask for every single rhyme and reason whenever i don't turn up for a certain event. is that what a church/cell group be like.? i really wonder.. we meet God in church to show our gratitude and praise him through singspiration and worship time. instead of having a cell group that helps to pull and connect you together with God, they, yes, pull you apart from God becos of their constant bickering. i also find it very hard to socialize with the people in my cell group.


i must find a new place, where i can really have my quiet time with God.
i must find a new place, conducive enough for worshipping.
and lastly, i must find a new place where i can take good advantage and use of my talents my Heavenly Father have given to me.