You see, there is this huge difference between anger and disappointment. But people don't see it. They're more inclined to fear when they meet anger, not disappointment. Let's break it down a little.

You see, anger has a much bigger picture than name-calling, stinky vulgarities, flaring of temper. Anger us overrated. Anger is fueled by this sense of transcending care and concern, and just simply the strengthened energy to force a change, to demand for the better, to execute your expectations through imposing your opinions and to simply wish for a better relationship with each other. Anger is the marriage of over-protection and over-provocation. Yet unfortunately, the only thing people seem to realize is the immediate reaction. They don't get the bigger picture.

You see, disappointment, unlike anger, is the act of simply raising both hands in surrender and announce, "I had enough. I give up.". it's a sorry one sided affair. One party simply puts his head down in defeat and admit, "I'm the loser. I'm the sucker." and then the story ends right about there. It's a state of mind where one simply succumbs to the situation, takes his foot out, and walk away. In defeat and embarrassment. Unlike anger, it's hard to pull someone out of disappointment.

You see, as often as it may be, I've been an angry man. A really really angry man. Then one day, this awakening struck me - the ones you used to call friends, partners, alliances, acquaintances, whatever them devils are called! You stop and realized that they aren't actually reciprocating what you offer. They are nervous, shaky and they do no good to you. Then you stop. And then you're immediately immersed in this wave of disappointment. A huge rush of it.

You see, I'd very much like to bid my farewell and look for my forever. But there's something stopping me. This is no creative writing. This is a declaration.

You see, I was once angry. Perhaps too angry. Now, I'm just plain disappointed.

Till I finally make friends with the mirror.